Monday, July 31, 2006

this is my latest and biggest project this year

its building approximately 2.5 miles of new rail road bed and 1 mile of municipal road just 15 miles from my office

a cool 800,000 and change for a few weeks work

any other questions feel free

razors back

Friday, July 28, 2006

Heres my home for the next 5 or 6 weeks

Sunday, July 23, 2006

The secret to a happy life or really my secret to being happy

that's right people I am happy most of the time, except do not ask my employees as they think I am eternally miserable. I think I just have one of those faces that makes me look unhappy most of the time and because of the work I do I have learned to keep my face blank most of the time. No not because I work in an office but because I spent my formative adult years running bulldozers and you learn not to smile or you swallow a lot of dust. And I mean a lot of dust.

anyway back to my main point, I am a generally happy if not pleasant person. My secret I have forgotten most of my life, the good , the bad and the ugly. I just let it go and I live my life looking forward not backwards.

the problem is that the Irish chick wonders why I never talk about myself or my childhood, sometimes I thinks she wonders if I am trying to hide something. My childhood was for the most part really good, we weren't rich but we never went hungry and we always had fun. But it wasn't all sunshine and roses, I was the 3rd and last child and spent most of my time feeling like the 3rd wheel not unwanted but not the priority. I think that's where my life long power struggle with my brother comes from, he was always the number 1 son and I mean that in every sense of the word, and I have made it my goal to dominate him and become the alpha male in the family.

but anyway the secret to my happiness is to remember the lessons I learned but forgetting the way I learned them.

LOL imagine that the secret to being happy being so easy

of course I'm probably full of shit but it works for me

Friday, July 21, 2006

Okay its Chris meme answers huh

dang, some of these questions hurt my wee brain

1. If you had to set your own work schedule; 8 hours per day; 5 days per week. Which days and hours would you choose?

Only work 8 hours a day five days a week? How do I get that job, shiite if I could get those hours I would let you pick! But Sunday to Thursday midnight to 8 am

2. What Reality Show would you be on and why?

how about Jerry Springer, because someone really needs to slap that bald security guy

3. What is the last book you read?

Don't really remember because its been over a year since I read it, I only have time to read when I am on vacation, but in my defense I read about 50 books last year. I read the trilogy for The Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy, its like 300 pages but absolutely hilarious.

4. There are many songs that bring us back to a certain memory. What song(s) do you HATE to hear for that very reason?

anything from the 70's or 80's

5. If you could go back in time to be any place in world history, what time would you choose and what country/place?

I would go back to the 10th century and be a Viking that way when I ran amok it would not only be expected it would be praised and rewarded. I could let all my baser instincts out and just go completely over the top

6. Do you know more than one language? Which one(s).

I, like most Canadians, know some French and my accent is good enough that when I say "he n'parlez pas francais" no one wants to believe me.

7. What is your favorite blog? Please link it. One only

I would say Chris's blog is my favourite but its not updated enough for a data junkie like me(yes I know mine goes weeks with out updating what's youth point?) so my next favourite is a link dump for strange stories called fark.

8. What is your favorite web site?
its not really my favourite but it is hilarious. Its kind of a sex advice site for Indians of the New Delhi variety! Their English is atrocious. The questions they ask, bizzare! And since its a sort of self help site where the readers give the answers, its absolutely stunningly weird.

9. Your house is on fire, the people and pets you love are safe and you can grab one other "thing", what are you taking?

my laptop, it contains most of my happy memmories

10. You have $100 to spend in the next hour. How are you spending it? (Saving it or giving it away not permitted.)

$100 bucks geez don't shoot too high! LOL I guess probably I would get some wrenches or something

razors back

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Hi everybody or most likely just Chris

I am still alive and kicking,
alive and kicking

sorry sometimes I just let my darkside out for a stroll, though judging by the fact I can scare an entire company of adult males out of their minds maybe my pleasant side isn't all that pleasant either. But rest assured I don't quit, ever!

I may not always win, but I never lose.

I have just been busy and its been ugly warm here lately. Maybe you people from the south, you know hubs of hell adjacent, are used to 100 degree heat but us poor Canadians just melt

add to that the busiest summer on record at work and the poorest selection of available work force I have ever seen, my days just get longer and longer.

seriously though if you want a quiet but busy job and can operate heavy equipment and are available to work in Canada, send me a message. I am a fat lazy Fuck who hasn't really made a living operating machinery in over 5 years and I am still the third best operator I have. Canada has gone completely fucking loop and there are probably 2 jobs for every person looking. And as for the people looking, do not even get me started.

okay lets go back to earlier in the post, I went golfing with among other people one of my employees and at appropriate quiet moment alone on the course I asked him some questions, seriously that's not why I went I just thought I would multi-task. I asked are the guys working here really that scared of me, his only answer was "yes". LOL them wee fuckers live in abject fear of me, sorry it just makes me laugh, I have only ever shown them my kind and compassionate side and they hate me.


life's what you make it, so go ahead and take it

I hate my life but Fuck the world if they think I am going to give them the satisfaction of quitting in the middle of the story.

razors back

Thursday, July 13, 2006

sometimes late at night
the darkness shines it light
you own a house but not a home
you are destined to die alone
no one loves you
no one can love you
just stop, just quit
no one gives a shit
let go, sucumb to the darkness
just disapear don't leave a mess
let them forget
live without regret
do them one last kindness
just dont leave a messrazors back

the last of the white hot lovers

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

The devil is in the details.

Surprise surprise surprise Chris wants details LOL

Okay here goes

October is my idea, she wanted me to come earlier but I thought about it and I decided October was best

Why October
It gives her the summer with her kids with out me sticking my size 12's in the middle
Its good for me as well, its a very busy year at work and the family needs my help
It also leaves her September to get her kids settled into school
It gives me more of an opportunity to save some more cash
October is a good month to travel, university kids are back in school so they aren't traveling, summer vacations are over so even those that ran theirs a little late aren't traveling either, too early for Christmas traveling and people just don't seem to travel in October so things should be cheaper.
Work should be wrapping up then and no new projects starting, it is after all the herald to winter in Canada.
To me Irish winters are mild and enjoyable if a wee bit lacking in sunlight and a little damp.

October was not just a date I pulled out my arse, I considered it and that seemed to be the best time. Its a hard thing to wait for but after 2 failed starts I want it to be right because every one knows in baseball, three strikes and you are out.

My intention is very much to move there and get to know her and her kids better, to see if we can make a go of it and if we can then to start the necessary steps to get a job. I have had a job since I was 15, I can't imagine not having one. Their construction industry is a lot different then ours though, smaller more compact. I have a nack for finding my self a place and the intelligence to exploit any openings so I look forward to the challenge. As well I can probably work via computer for the family firm, most of what I do now is on it anyways.

She is as free as she wants to be, she will not appreciate that line, but it seems to me in this day and age we are all as free as we want to be. Even Chris in her blog shows us that she is as free as she wants to be and where she is, is where she chooses to be.

We will give it one more opportunity and then I guess if it doesn't work its best we leave it be

to have loved and lost is better than to never have loved at all
to love unrequited is to live a thousand little deaths

So there you go all the news that's fit to print

Monday, July 10, 2006

Hi Every body

Sorry about not updating, I just cant think of anything fun and amusing to post so been a little recalcitrant.

the Irish chick and I seem to be getting on better

I am supposed to go see her in October and see if we think its going to last, if it does and I think it will, you're looking at a future Irishman LOL

maybe I could change my last name to be more Irish friendly, what do you think of MacOster LOL Atleast the first name is Irish friendly anyways not much new still just working and sleeping

I am developing the ultimate farmers tan(head and arms only) which is still better than a truckers tan (left arm only)

anyways I guess no news is good news so have a nice day
razors back