Monday, January 22, 2007

Yes Christine, how's that for an overly simplistic answer LOL

What I am coming more and more to understand is what she wants is a purely intellectual relationship and not in any way a physical one.

That is precisely why I opted out, what's the point of sharing our thoughts and feelings if all it will be is a keyboard relationship. So I am doing my best to move on though I will admit I miss what was before but since it was never a whole relationship its better to leave the half of it behind .

"Twas better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all" or so the poets say

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Friday, January 19, 2007

The Irish Chick and I are definitely not back together.

We still text every day but I keep it on polite friendly terms and I will not allow it to progress beyond that

She has hinted and even attempted to put our relationship back into the old terms, today she even said she wanted me back, I wont go.

I still love her but it cant go on like this, I cant go on like this.

So I will talk to her but only as friends, it drives her mad.

But her happiness really isn't up to me any more, she saw to that.

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LOL you are right its all in my head but its in the small head not the big one lmao

Back when I was 25 and still in the prime of my life, strong, flexible and only pudgy. LOL ahh the days when I could scare women and small children just by walking into a room, anyways it was a long cold winter weekend and with the right stimulation and plenty of time I did reach the promised land 14 times in 1 day LOL now I am old and fat and lazy not good for more than 2 or 3 times a night and definitely not every night LOL

Well that's my story and I am sticking to it ......... And the sheets (now I bet you snorted your diet coke out your nose)

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Monday, January 15, 2007

LOL the penis name generator site I stole off the blog of an English lesbian back packing in Australia named fucckit

LOL I get the tongue in cheek joke about a lesbian needing a penis name

and hey I am not entirely ruled by my little head, I have never really gave Mr. Happy a name. I wont deny we have been close companions for most of life and starting from when he grew some hair we have been involved in some monumental wrestling matches which I always won!! Well I think I won he always had to lay down and have a rest after we were done playing. Alas with time some distance has appeared in our relationship, where once we wrestled 3 or 4 or 14 times a day he now no longer has the energy for these repeat performances. *sigh* razors back

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Your Penis Name Is...
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Your Penis Name Is...
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Saturday, January 06, 2007

Okay the Irish chick has read my blog and objects to the last entry in certain points so I am here to make some corrections

I do believe the Irish chick loves me its just that she doesn't love me enough to take a chance on building a real life with me. I believe she just wants the long distance one we have now. All cerebral and no physical

second when I was talking about wanting me only for sex I meant that in the context of being together. She is not in any way a one night stand.

she is in fact loathe to admit she even has a sexual drive and the fact that I could bring it out in her so easily also kind of scared her. We went places she didn't know she had and I mean that in the emotional way not in the kinky sex department.

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Friday, January 05, 2007

So big news to report

I will not be going to Ireland

She has decided to install a road block to us having a real adult relationship so I have decided to uninstal myself from the situation

Funny thing is she still wants the relationship we had but too me its just throwing good time after bad times, better to just break it off and walk away so I did

I think it shocked her I really believe she thought it would be business as usual, maybe even I would still go and see her and sneak around having sex with her in stolen moments. I see now I really wasn't anything but a sex toy to her. She didn't want a real relationship she just wanted the multiple orgasms I gave her.

I wonder if its because she didn't want to admit to her friends who I was, for most of my adult life I have felt like someone's dirty little secret and I wont do that anymore. Some of you have seen my pictures and you know I am an unattractive fat man. What the pictures fail to indicate is the sheer scale, I am not just fat, I am not just tall, I am really a giant albeit a small one. I know by now you are all thinking I am just wallowing in self pity and you maybe partially correct. I am the youngest of three, I have 1 sister and 1 brother, for years my father introduced me, if he introduced me at all, as his other son but never with the enthusiasm with which he introduced my normal brother. This left me feeling like I was something to be kept hidden, a secret to be revealed only when necessary. Now my father and I have a more normal relationship and I think he actually likes me now and he doesn't hesitate to introduce me, but it took me a lot of hard work to earn that which was convened on my brother from birth.

I will not be anyone's dirty little secret anymore

when I first got involved with the Irish chick she was still married(still is legally) so our relationship was secret and I understood that and accepted it. The first two times I went to visit her we had to sneak around stealing what time where we could, I was her dirty little secret.

this time I thought I would be going to see her as an adult and not having to sneak around like a thief. Until she did the one thing I cant abide and tried to get me to go back to being her dirty little secret.

I will not be anybodies dirty little secret ever again

truth is I kind of expected it the other two times she panicked when the time got close and I wondered if she would again. I haven't bought my ticket because I wondered if this day would come and it did so its over c'est la vie

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Okay I see there's been some repeated interest in accompanying me on my little jaunt to Northern Ireland

so first I have to run a wee survey

1. How flexible are you?

Now I know they say you are never supposed to ask a lady this question but:

2. How much do you weigh?

the reason I had to ask was because of the next question:

3. Are you willing to travel as checked baggage?

I don't mind paying for a little over weight luggage charge(no silly I think you look fabulous just the way you are but the airlines do have rules) but whatever money I spend buying you a seat comes directly out of my Beer and champ budget and well.......... I really like beer!!!!!!

But remember you are going to have to go 18 hours with out a bathroom or diet coke and the boys handling the bags can be a little rough. Maybe you will get lucky and can get out and walk around in the hold of the plane for awhile. I just hope they don't leave your bag out in the heavy rain like the last time I flew anywhere!

On the plus side it is a large bag and its conceivable that if you are flexible enough and petite enough it may prove to be a comfortable fit LOL

Its really too bad I cant buy new clothes over there or we could make it a group thing LOL
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